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The snowball effect

Two years ago today my beloved Bobby left my life and went into the arms of angels. This left a gap in my life that would overwhelm me to a degree I didn't expect. It ripped a part of my life away and left it empty and dark. As much as I tried to be strong and brave it just wouldn't happen. The loneliness was overwhelming. The simple act of doing anything that we would have shared was crushing to my heart. In 2 years much has changed and somethings have not. I miss him terribly. His laugh, his dry humor, his advice, his love. In their place now where these memories live is sad sometimes and at other times I will smile and laugh over our memories. As I sit here now as tears roll down my cheeks and I'm filled with grief. I try to keep these intense feelings in the back of my mind and go threw life just letting them skim the edge of my reality. 

I have to move on and that part seems harder some days than others. Getting "stuck in grief" isn't a position I'd w…